Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Gotta love Mother Nature & Besties

The other day I went on a hike with my good friend to this place we call "The Rock". It was such a good feeling to get away from these concrete roads and automobiles. To get away from the constant advertisements of this and that. It was so good to get out in the wild; a sweet little trip back to how it used to be before everything took off with our new high standard of living.

It's amazing to see what nature can do to your mood. Your thought process. Your view on life.


That day I was able to let go of all the anger that I had pent up inside from the recent happenings. Everyone in the world needs a best good friend. With someone who's there for you despite of your actions and decisions (well to some extent). It's nice to bounce your ideas off of someone who's isn't too deep in the mix that you yourself is in. An outsider's view of your life. I feel like sometimes life is just so busy with just trying to survive with all these bills and need-to-do's that it's hard to make time for your best good friend. But I'm happy that I did. & hiking was her idea.
  

She knows what I need & doesn't say what I need, she just has it all land in place. & poof! I feel better. acquaintances come & go but best good friends stay for life! :D ok ok that's a little much but there was a time that I would say stuff like that all the time & it didn't mean anything more than what it literally said.

I'm just sayin'. Be grateful for what you have, only then can you be happy & content of where you are in life. Sometimes I don't take my own my advice, but we're all human. & being human automatically means we make mistakes. Because we are not perfect & we need not to strive to be so.

Life is beautiful & I'm done watching it just go by. Enjoi :]
Peace & Love.

Friday, March 11, 2011

I'll be the look out

I'm posted at my castle up in the look-out tower. I'll be prepared ahead of time when I see danger coming my way. I'm sitting tight with my Little Lion as my back-up. He'll fuck you up with his big dangerous claws if you get too close; or if you disturb him while he's sleeping... SO beware.

Procrastination is apparently my middle name, and random unknown distractions are the way of this game. I'm posted here being the look out, paranoid of being home alone. I have homework to do, but recent happenings have been my distraction. It's like watching someone's death, but they're doing it to themselves. & no matter how you try to talk to them or help them, they don't understand or don't want to listen to you.

What happened the last two weeks? Why am I scared of being here by myself? I know what happened and I'll let you know through my eyes. My experiences, my opinions, my thoughts. That's why you've come here correct? To understand happenings from my point of view? Well hang tight buddy, It's gonna get interesting.


So here is your warning. This is my God daymn Blog and you can leave & go suck a cock if what I have to say pisses you off. I don't give a fuck about your opinion or what you have to say about this matter. This is my page, I'm not blowing you up, I'm putting you on blast. But your name will remain anonymous, so don't worry. You can either take this into consideration or ignore it because that's what you're used to doing anyways.

The last 2 weeks a good friend of mine, His name will be Victor, has been on a drinking rampage. It's hard to try and talk some sense into him, because he's the kind of person who's mind thought is "Whatever I say goes, and I'm always right; always WINNING". Always WINNING huh? I don't think so.

Despite of getting a DUI, he's still determined to get a drink. Drink, Drink, Drink, Drink. That should be his middle right now, not DOWN. And for the record, I don't think getting a DUI is winning at all. I was hopeing it would knock some sense into you & maybe you'd slow down. But once again it didn't.

Why didn't it? Why did you think you could lie to my boyfriend, tell him you needed to charge your phone in his car just to get the keys, & try and steal it? You're lucky he's your family, he fucking loves you. He considers you his best friend. But the stupidity of it all is just overwhelming. Did you think you could get away w/ it? The car is parked where we can see out our back window. What the hell were you thinking?

Victor was so determined to go to the bar. SO DETERMINED that despite his failed attempt at stealing my boyfriend's car, he convinced my boyfriend's twin brother to go to the bar w/ him. YOu stole my boyfriends mom's car, which is your aunt btw just in case you forgot, Just to go to the bar?? WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING???

I awoke at 3 o'clock in the a.m. to a spammed doorbell and screaming from outside. It was Miguel. He was upset, bloody elbow from bashing in his mom's back window. You think he's crazy Victor. THAT'S BECAUSE HE IS!!! DUmmy! He's unstable, he's Bipolar and yet you decide to bring him along with you to get that itch. That lovely taste of alcohol. You didn't not need to drag him into this.

The rest is history i guess. The night ended finally ended at 5 in the morning. It involved 4 sheriff cop cars and 6 sheriff cops. My boyfriend's mother was @ the scene. It was freezing cold and depressing to see. Miguel was 151ed and Victor was taken to county for being drunk in public. I hope County was surreal for you, it was for me. It's cold, you have to sleep on metal benches and use toilet paper rolls as pillows. Don't try and tell me otherwise because I've been there, and I've done that. I hope it brought you to a different level of understanding of how deep you're in.


You, Victor are not the same person you used to be. The "everyone loves","so funny", "loving" kind of guy. It's hard to be around you. It's like you thrive off of Chaos. YOU need help. America is a completely different place than where you're from. You will learn that you will have a love-hate relationship with this country. Because just like any country this one isn't perfect. But neither is yours! If you really don't like it here maybe you should bounce out & quit with the whole USA sucks. I mean you FUCKING live here. I'm just sayin.

You need to understand Victor, that you are loved. No matter how pissed off at you I was, I was mostly worried about you. You need help. I hope you straighten up. & I'm happy you're family is involved, FINALLY. You need a parental figure because your friends telling you that your Fucking up doesn't work obviously. & do us all a favor, Man the fuck up. Tell the truth, stand by your decisions, and say YES I FUCKED UP. You make yourself look more of a pathetic little boy the more you lie. That's just my opinion.

SO that's where I stand. & I'm happy it's all over. Thanks for reading. This one's a long one.

When it rains, it fucking pours. But today is a sunny day. & I'm glad to be alive to hear the birds sing & witness this beautiful day. My heart goes out to Japan thou, with the tsunami and everything. You guys are being thought of and prayers are being sent out to you.

Peace & love everyone.
I hope you're having a better week than I am.

YOU.

YOU.

Thank you to you who ever you are who wrote this letter.
I feel that everyone in the world needs to read this letter.
This letter has and will make a difference in someone's day.

Thank you to you who ever you are who wrote this letter.

Peace & Love